Tighter

by | Sep 28, 2010 | 0 comments

It’s the kind of weather – windy and rainy with splotches of sunlight-where you look up at the sky and see the clouds moving so quickly.

It’s been a really rough afternoon- Audrey fell asleep in the car on her way back from the play group so that was her nap- so no nap here.  I’m feeling lethargic and laying down a lot.  Audrey comes to me saying, “Wake up mommy…wake up.”  

Looked up at the clouds and was surprised to see once they moved- the sun- looking white and round like the moon.  I looked right at it.  Saw the hawk up there too.

A friend called and has come over to bathe Audrey which I am so glad for.  While she reads to Audrey on the floor next to me before bedtime, I lay on the bed listening in that spoonable position- craving your body to spoon mine the way we sometimes did.  And sometimes you’d put your arm around me before we slept after I’d ask you to hold me…”tighter…tighter” I’d say.

JAC

September 28, 2010

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