by | Sep 3, 2010 | 1 comment

Tonight, without putting down her chicken or corn, and without looking me in the eye – Audrey asked, in her choppy way of new language:

“Au drey
Ap pa

I sat down next to her.  “No, honey, I’m so sorry.  Remember, Appa can’t come home anymore.  Appa’s all gone.”

“Ap pa

she said quietly.


September 3, 2010

1 Comment

  1. mamahearsawho

    oh Julia.
    You don't know me at all and i've only been lurking here a little bit, but this…this is just heartbreaking.

    i don't know where you find the strength…


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