by JAC | Jul 17, 2012 | Dear Audrey, Uncategorized
“She’s kept her love for him as alive as the summer they first met. In order to do this, she’s turned life away.” “To paint a leaf, you have to sacrifice the whole landscape. It might seem like you’re limiting yourself...
by JAC | Jul 16, 2012 | Dear Audrey, Uncategorized
This day is dreadfully painful, but it only occurs to me tonight that this was the day of your wake. The day I saw your body and the last time I saw your face. The evening I had dreaded for a week. The collapse of my body as the funeral director...
by JAC | Jul 8, 2012 | Dear Audrey, Uncategorized
How do you measure two years?Two years of saying goodbye.Of wanting to wake up from a bad dream.Of hovering somewhere just outside of my physical body- watching all this.Two years. A few changed light bulbs. A couple of bottles of shampoo. Lots of...
by JAC | Jul 6, 2012 | Dear Audrey, Uncategorized
Today’s been pretty miserable which seems to be typical of the “day before.” Audrey seemed especially aware of the anniversary. She sat looking at albums by herself while I cleaned the kitchen this morning. I came out and stood...
by JAC | Jul 5, 2012 | Dear Audrey, Uncategorized
I sit outside in the dark on my balcony, listening to the distant boom of the Macy’s Fireworks over the Hudson. I have a nice view straight down River Road. The air is furnace-like but I don’t sweat. I leave the AC on while I’m out...
by JAC | Jul 3, 2012 | Dear Audrey, Uncategorized
Evening.I open up a hard drive to look through photographs from the past two years. I am hoping to find beauty and proof that I’ve survived. Instead I wind up playing some of the music you left behind- mp3s I copied from your computer/studio. What a...
