God Jul

by | Aug 8, 2010 | 1 comment

In the winter before the holidays, you were touring in Europe. You wrote me that you kept seeing the words “God Jul” everywhere in Scandinavia. You thought it was a sign- God telling you to put him and me first in your life.

I looked it up and discovered it meant Merry Christmas in Danish.
Since I am part Danish and liked the sentiment that it had impressed upon you- I believe that was another bond we shared- always looking for signs and symbols in our life together- I decided to have special burlap stockings with the words God Jul made from an Etsy shop. I ordered four because we were planning on having another baby soon and I wanted all of our stockings to match.
Four stockings- I have four stockings.


August 8, 2010

1 Comment

  1. Rachelle11

    Heartbreaking. My heart hurts for you, and I don't even know you. Your writing makes you feel so familiar. I can't tell you if this is the passion you were searching for through this tragedy, but it is certainly your gift.


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