Seeing Me

by | Aug 9, 2010 | 0 comments

Just reread your email that I had pasted below.

Thank you Dan for seeing in me the best…and the worst- but still seeing the best after 11 years.
I used to always quote Dostoevsky to you when he said, “To love is to see someone how God intended them to be.” And I think that we both did that for each other completely and truly. We did not block out the ways in which we plummeted from that version of ourselves- but i believe it was love that allowed us to keep seeing the original creation as it was intended.
And I thank you for seeing all of that in me, and there is a dark fear that no one else ever shall again. That it will be hidden here in me until I see you again…all of the beauty you saw in this very broken girl.
Thank you
for
seeing
me.

JAC

August 9, 2010
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