Two Bouquets

by | Sep 16, 2010 | 3 comments

Why am I fixated on who will walk Audrey down the aisle?  We’ve got a few more decades ’til then, but I guess it’s something I already said from time to time to you- “One day you’ll be walking her down that aisle.”  You would say something like, “Oh don’t say that!”  You wanted her to stay little and cute forever.

The other day in one of the grieving books I read about a bride who had lost her father at a very young age.  She had two bouquets made up on her wedding day- one that she carried- and one that she laid at her father’s grave later that day.  I wept when I read this.

I literally sat here for a while just now pondering this question that is decades away.  Audrey doesn’t have a brother- who knows who will be in our lives at that time, I think.  But then I have a thought that seems so simple I can’t believe it eluded me.  I will.  Of course.  I will give her away.

JAC

September 16, 2010

3 Comments

  1. Claire

    Your writings mean a lot to me. My husband died 6 yrs. ago and when I told my youngest of four daughters that her Dad had died (she was 21) her immediate response was, "Who will walk me down the aisle now?" Her other three sisters are married. Your words are the truest words I have read that describe grief and going through each day. I continue in prayer for you and Audrey for the days ahead. Thank you.

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  2. Anonymous

    Julia: My mother walked me down the aisle and it was a beautiful moment for me. I also danced with her for a mother/daughter dance. It's not the tradition that matters. It all falls to the wayside when things don't go as planned. In place of tradition, we create our own special moments that sufficiently fill that void.

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  3. Anne D

    Of COURSE you can give her away! That would be lovely. But as you know, it's too soon to speculate. I do understand the way a grieving mind jumps sometimes to seemingly mundane concerns. Nothing is mundane in the context of your situation right now. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.

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