One Month

by | Jul 29, 2010 | 0 comments

Today it is one month since you left us- to go on the tour. You left on June 29, 2010. That is the last day I saw you alive.

We didn’t want another dramatic goodbye- we were always crying- both of us- while I told Audrey you’d be back, that you had to go on a plane. So, we just gave a simple hug and goodbye- see you in a few weeks this time.
After I closed the door, I still cried quietly, but quickly pulled myself together and started to get Audrey’s lunch together.
Then I heard the door open- you came back in and said you would leave your house keys- since you wouldn’t need them. So, our goodbye- our very last goodbye- was even more casual.
“Oh OK, bye. Love you.” Something like that.

JAC

July 29, 2010
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